Sunset in Big Sur

I’m sitting in the baths of Esalen ~ on the edge of a cliff ~ above the pacific ocean ~ watching the sun set ~ and reminding myself that the world is spinning ~ I must have said it out loud because Jim replies that I better hold on ..it’s slippery ~ laughter ~ no worries ..look ..no hands ~ more laughter ~ water splashes over the side and I watch it disappear into space ~ someone asks what I thought about the workshop ~ what ~ you know, this afternoon ~ I don’t remember ~ laughter ~ look, I’m only dealing with what’s in front of me right now ~ laughter ~ I inhale and pass it to Alexandra and Dieter ~ who are discussing plans to leave tomorrow ~ fly to Mexico ~ take a bus to Oaxaca ~ and lie on the beach at Puerto Escondido. "Sounds cool" I tell them "..but, don’t let it interfere with your view of the stars tonight." Alexandra laughs but I have the feeling Dieter thinks I’m strange ~ I guess they better leave soon before I get anymore attracted to her ~ she has a way of making you feel warm ~ by paying attention ~ not acting like there’s somewhere else she’d rather be ~ whereas me, I have difficulty maintaining eye contact ~ and tend to drift until it’s my turn to talk ~ I’m getting better ~ now I listen to people so I have something to write about later.